I woke up with a headache. It’s midnight. I won’t be able to fall back asleep because I’m too upset to function. Just another day in this life. I can’t wait to end this year of high school and bring in summer. I truly am blessed for everything in my life. However, tonight is one of those nights where I don’t see the purpose in anything.

What do you do when you have so much on your mind you can’t even sit still? You feel like you have to drive around for hours on end until you have no gasoline left. Or you feel like you have to pace around in circles until your carpet burns your feet. I am beyond beside myself with so many choices and options that I don’t know how to react to them.

Today I also learned that I once dated the biggest asshole to walk the earth. Four months after being broken up and I still have to put up with shit. I haven’t been so offended by someone’s words in such a long time. So I’ve been contemplating everything for the past two hours about how much of a failure I really must be. I went from being so anxious to so upset that I couldn’t move. I think I’ll call it a day.